If you don't know yet, he's here!  Noah Michael Wong entered the world 4:59pm at 6lbs14oz and 20.5in.  We (Des and I) are so blessed with him.  No complications, he and Des are fine, and he sleeps so much!  Thanking God for such a smooth delivery.

He's coming...

When I think about it, I really start to get nervous.  In a couple of days, I am going to be in charge of a person's life... a person who is totally defenseless and completely fragile, someone who is entirely dependent on my wife and me.

The more I think about it, the more I start to worry.  Des is getting induced tonight/tomorrow and then we just wait for him to come... pray that we stay sane.  I try not to think about it, and I try to stay optimistic in front of Des because I don't want to cause any unwanted stress, especially since she has high bp.  How long will it take?  How much more will the pain intensify because they are inducing?  Will I be able to cope with it?  Will I be able to support?  What's going to happen after the birth?  Am I ready?  AM I READY TO BE A FATHER?

On another note, bowled the best and most consistent day last Thursday night.  Averaged 172.5! 

So I went bowling Tuesday...

I was pretty bummed because I had left my shoes at the bowling alley last week and my friend got them for me... except he didn't come this Tuesday.  I had to resort to my tattered, talking, 10 dollar cheapie shoes... great.

Ironically, it actually helped my game.  It made me concentrate more, and totally changed my approach.  Result?  246!!!  I beat my high by over 30 pins.  It was incredible and exhilirating.  Broke a lot of records that night.

28 Plate ELISA... can we say exhausting?

My supervisor told me he's done 250 plate ELISAs with 3 other people... that's either dedication or insanity.

Week 29 for Noah.  Just started taking Lamaze classes.  Birthing looks really disturbing... Des must be petrified.  I pray that I can be a good coach for her.

So being a dad has really been on my mind lately.  Especially since holding my worship pastor's kid...

She's not even one and she already poses!! 

Anyway, I started to wonder, what kind of dad am I going to be?  Am I going to be a model of my own dad?  He's rather quiet, and only gets animated when he has to.  Slow to talk, but when he does, you better listen.  Two words to describe him are patient and wise.  I really respect him.  I really hope that I turn out to be just like him.

I also worry about being the opposite.  I've noticed that Des has to tell me to settle down sometimes when I am in discussion with friends/family.  Am I going to be loud and obnoxious?  Am I going to be yelling constantly at my kids?  My mom used to do that... and I think it really had a negative effect on me.  Not that my mom was mean, she just wasn't as patient as my dad.  Maybe it was because she had to deal with us all day while my dad was the breadwinner at work.  On top of that, he was at the pharmacy 24/7 it seemed... by the time he would get home we would be getting ready for bed.  If anything, that's one thing I would regret... he didn't seem to be home much.  Back to my mom... one thing she really did well was support me; she would travel with me in high school on choir trips and would really encourage me when I had a big project to do, or was really stressed.  Thanks, Mom.

I went to a marriage retreat this past weekend.  They had a session on Dads that I attended.  Listening to the speakers tell of their stories, being a parent is a lot of work!  I think my life is busy now... how the heck am I going to fit in being a parent into it also?  It makes me worry sometimes, but God won't give me more than I can handle right?  I'm really active at my church right now... maybe I will have to give some of that up.

For the guys that read this (if any), I would recommend the book "So You're Going to Be a Dad".  Written by a guy, for a guy.  The preface even has a disclaimer discouraging women from reading it.  It's really easy reading; the author lays down the facts and throws in some sarcasm and humor as well.  Really gives you a good picture on what to expect.

Pray for God to give me the wisdom and patience that my dad shows me. 

Pray for God to give me the support and encouragement my mom gave me.